Ok I know earlier I said I was changing my music to britney spears…
but im having so many emotions right now I had to change it again…my heart feels so heavy right now and ugh just fml. over and over…
ok this is killing me…
everytime i sit and try to think of a song that I want to listen to what pops in my head every single time is “when love and hate collide” and it kills me because 1. I do not want to listen to the song. 2. it reminds me of who referred me to the song and his reasoning behind it. 3. i dont want to think about the past…..so why in the fuck can i not just get that out of my head!
ugh fml now im going to have to listen to it. fml fml fml fml
"If I Never Knew You" - Pocahontas soundtrack
My husband and I were talking about disney songs saying different lines from ones to see if we could guess them. So I thought of my favorite movie as a child and started listening to this song lol. Yeah this just happened.
Kevin Whitehead on Bing Crosby's influence on popular music:
Bing Crosby’s influence on modern singing is so huge, we barely notice it anymore. It spread out through deadpan crooners like Perry Como, folksy colloquialists like Johnny Mercer, and warm sexy baritones like Billy Eckstine. Later singers who effectively undersell a song are indebted too, like Nick Drake and Leonard Cohen.
Image of Bing Crosby reading the sheet music is from a CBS radio recording session in the fall of 1954, at the CBS studio in Hollywood courtesy of HLC Properties Ltd.
What is Bipolar Disorder?
As defined by the DSM-IV-TR, Bipolar Disorder is sectioned in to four groups, three of which will be covered in this post. These are Bipolar I Disorder, Bipolar II Disorder, and Cyclothymia - the fourth and not detailed will be Bipolar Disorder Not Otherwise Specified (NOS) and requires an impressive amount of detail to explain.
Bipolar disorder is, in general, a disorder which shows signs of manic episodes and depressive episodes
Bipolar disorder is often treated with a combination of multiple tactics, as certain forms are more severe and life-altering than others and may require more assistance by a psychological clinician. Often people with bipolar disorder in any stream will undergo counselling and psychotherapy, are medicated with mood regulators, and in certain cases may require life management programs.
You may not require a diagnosis of depressive episodes to be given a bipolar disorder diagnosis - manic episodes alone are sufficient.
This disorder is commonly referred to as manic depression or manic depressive disorder, though these terms have been out of use in the realm of psychology since the DSM-III was published, or since 1980.
What are the Symptoms of Bipolar Disorder?
Mania - This is a state where someone has an unusually elevated mood. People in a manic episode are energetic, euphoric, irritable, aggressive, and very prone to doing spur of the moment activities. These are not mutually inclusive, and someone in a manic episode may not show signs of all of them. Mania is the main reason that life management skills must be reinforced in people with bipolar disorder, as their levels of judgement drop drastically and they can go and do something dangerous, irrational, or potentially life damaging. An example of this would be someone in a manic episode deciding to spend their entire life’s savings on frivolous items. Mania can also show psychotic symptoms such as hallucinations and delusions and may require the person undergoing a manic episode to be committed until it subsides. This is done for their own safety. People in severe manic episodes have been known to forget to sleep or eat for days on end, and to become sexually promiscuous.
Hypomania - This is a milder version of mania. It does not reach the same extreme state as mania, and is why it warrants a different bipolar diagnosis. One of the major differences between a hypomanic episode and a manic episode is that people in a hypomanic episode are more ‘fully functioning’ than those in a manic episode - they are better able to rationalize what they are doing and make more reasonable judgement calls.
Depression - A depressive episode is a significant drop in mood. Depression can show in many phases, but bipolar disorder often deals with a “standard” phase and a melancholic phase. Depression is catagorised by persistent low mood, self esteem, lowered sex drive, and a general sense of a loss of interest in activities previously enjoyed by the sufferer. They also can show psychotic symptoms, often categorized by hallucinations. Melancholic depression is when there is very little to no change in lowered mood, even in positive events.
Rapid Cycling - The presence of four or more hypomanic and depressive episodes in a single year.
What is Bipolar I Disorder?
Bipolar I Disorder is what you first think of when you hear bipolar, a mixture of mania and depression. Bipolar I Disorder is characterized by episodes of mania and episodes of depression - though as stated before, manic episodes alone are sufficient for a diagnosis. Approximately 10%-15% of adolescents with recurrent Major Depressive Disorder will grow to develop Bipolar I Disorder.
What is Bipolar II Disorder?
This section of bipolar disorder is characterized by the presence of hypomanic episodes and depressive episodes - in this disorder, recurrent major depressive episodes must be present with a hypomanic episode for diagnosis. This form of Bipolar disorder is recognised as ‘less severe’. Approximately 60%-70% of hypomanic episodes occur immediately before or after a major depressive episode.
What is Cyclothymia?
This is an unusual disorder which shows rapid cycling. The difference between cyclothymia and standard bipolar disorders is that cyclothymic depressive episodes do not meet symptom or duration criteria of a major depressive episode - if someone who is diagnosed with cyclothymia has a major depressive episode within the first two years of diagnosis, the diagnosis of cyclothymia is switched to Bipolar II disorder.
Who can get Bipolar Disorder?
Bipolar I disorder has a lifetime prevalence of around 0.4% to 1.6% of the adult population of the United States, with the average age of onset being a mean of 20 years old.
Bipolar II disorder has an estimated lifetime prevalence of around 0.5%.
This disorder occurs relatively evenly between the sexes.
If you are in close relation to someone who has bipolar disorder in any phase, you are more likely to develop it. The DSM-IV-TR states that first degree relatives of people with Bipolar Disorder have the following elevation in had a 4%-24% higher rate of prevalence of Bipolar I Disorder, 1%-5% higher rate of Bipolar II Disorder and 4%-24% higher rate of Major Depressive Disorder than the general population.
So my husband has Bipolar I disorder as well as ADHD and I know that I have to be patient and show compassion towards him, I just get so frustrated and to a point to where I dont know what to do anymore and I contemplate leaving him Because I can not take it anymore…..But then I think about it this way, who would take care of him? who would help him? I am the only single person that understands and has been taking care of him. Does anyone else know what I am going through. I feel so alone in this.